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in life, there are alot of things that are left unsaid
i didn’t even have the chance to say out how i really feel inside of me. sometimes i wonder, if i am living for myself or i am living for others. why do i always feel that i am living for people. whatever i do, i have to think about how the people around me feel but they don’t even understand what and how i am going through.
can i have a rest? i doubt so.
sometimes, i really think i’ve tried so hard but i think its really different to go through it. feelings are really hard to express. if i have a chance, i hope that there is an angel beside me, digging out my heart to show the world what i am going through.
frankly speaking, i am still very sad. every night before i sleep, i will start to think alot of things. even if i don’t think, things and pictures will start to fill my mind. i am so helpless. when i am really tired, dreams just fill up my mind. nightmares will start to fill in. am i just alone?
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Frustrated is the word to describe how i really felt yesterday.
Hurt was the word that filled my heart yesterday.
i am already feeling so sad and hurt inside and yet you dig it even further. in my dreams, i would have never thought it was you. you are the person i respect most, i love most and the one whom i thought i could count on but you always disappoint me when i am at my wits end.
i thought everything would be different but its not. yesterday you said alot of words that hurt me. alot of unreasonable requests. let me shout it out loud, you were one of the main reason i made the biggest mistake in my life.
YOU refers to my mother
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Happy birthday my dear girl=)
Time really flies huh.
I could still remember yesterday was just like when we are 17years old joining poly. I really hope that this birthday was a bash for you. I am really happy that your dear is treating you real well.
Sad verses hurt is one thing. I am still crying. I am still feeling really sad inside. No one seems to understand how I feel except you because you are going through the same thing as me. We are constantly looking back at our memories and tears just can’t stop flowing down. Looking back at those pictures really bring me back happy memories. Sad ones as well. Words can’t explain everything but a picture says a thousand words.
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愛情是一種怪事
我開始全身不受控制
愛情是一種本事
我開始連自己都不是
為你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是為你寫詩
為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你我學會彈琴寫詞
為你失去理智
為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你彈奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了說 最美的是你的名字
愛情是一種怪事
你的笑容是唯一宗旨
愛情是一種本事
我在你心裡什麼位子
為你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是為你寫詩
為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你我學會彈琴寫詞
為你失去理智
為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你彈奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了說 最美的是你的名字
為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你 我學會彈琴寫詞
為你失去理智
為你寫詩 為你靜止
為你做不可能的事
為你彈奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了說 最美的是你的名字
我什都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的名字
我什都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的樣子
我什都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的名字
我什都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的樣子
Another day has gone by.
Everything seems like it just happened yesterday.
When you look into my eyes and walking me home, you asked me if I could be you’re the other half and I could still remember vividly that I said I would consider just because inside of me I didn’t want to be the kind of girl who anyhow agree to any request of a guy.
From the beginning, I was just another simple girl who fell in love with you.
Every day of my life when I was with you
I felt that you are the one
You are the one that made me fell in love with you so deeply and yet you are also the one who hurt me deeply in the past.
Bygones are always bygones.
I always forgive you because you meant the world to me.
Day after day, I hold everything inside of me, thinking that I could be strong but I was wrong.
As years go passed, friction came along.
When inside of me no longer could take it anymore,
I fell into temptation.
Not into just any temptation but a cruel temptation because I wanted someone to be there for me when I am down and someone to understand me but this was the first ever wrong step I took.
I destroyed an almost six year’s relationship in my own hands.
Whatever is done is done.
Will we get back together one day?
It all depends on FATE.
It all depends whether God really wants us to be together again.
This incident taught both of us a lesson and that is to treasure the person you love and not take him/her for granted.
I always wonder whether things could be the same again.
A lot of people told me it can’t be the same again because when a glass is broken, no matter how you mend it, it will still have cracks, in your heart; there would be still the scars of what I have let you down.
I always gave myself excuses that in the past, I was the one who got so hurt and that’s the reason why I became like that and why our relationship end up to be like this.
I have only myself to blame.
I really hate myself
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